Self-expression

self–expression
noun | self–ex·pres·sion | \-ik-ˈspre-shən\
:  the expression of one’s own personality :  assertion of one’s individual traits
: the expression of your thoughts or feelings especially through artistic activities (such as painting, writing, dancing, etc.)

I have always been inspired by different forms of self-expression whether it be through an artistic, physical, written or even technical means.

Throughout the years I spent my time learning different crafts, some of which have stayed with me up until this day. Some forms of self-expression that have struck a chord with me include: sketching, handwriting, skateboarding, video editing, blogging, body building, dance, and currently web design & development.

I realized when gradually building up my knowledge over the years for skills I am passionate about, I have an inclination to naturally share what I learn with others.

Dance in particular has been a large influence in my life. Breakin’ (or breakdance if you will) was one of the first major forms of self-expression that I truly felt free in. Not a day goes by when I don’t think about dance at least once.

Writing I would have to say is surprisingly my next strongest point. I say surprisingly because I never started out as a naturally talented writer.

During my early days at UC Irvine, my alma mater, I was initially placed into a pre-writing course since my skills were apparently not up to par with the UC standards. How I even got accepted into UCI with a sub-par writing level is questionable to a certain extent given that UC universities hold such high standards regarding writing.

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ZOT ZOT ZOT! UCI’s Mascot: The Anteater

Though I might never know the real reasoning behind my acceptance, I truly believe that I am part of a very small percentage that was accepted on a case-by-case scenario. I think the real reason had to do with my continued efforts and dedication for the study of the Japanese language, the subject I had applied to major in. But this is another story in and of itself that can be saved for another time.

Fast-forward some years later and guess what I’m doing. I’m living in Japan working as an English teacher at a private high school and I’m teaching… wait for it…

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WRITING!

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Yeah, the very thing I sucked at is now the thing I teach to high school kids. Funny how that works out right?

But you know, it turns out that I really do love writing and I wouldn’t be teaching it for a living, let alone doing right now on this blog, if weren’t true.

This is one of the reasons why I love WordPress so much. It’s because as a platform, it empowers you to be yourself. It gives you a means to express freely. It holds no bars as to what you can or cannot say and that’s what makes it so great.

 

 

2 thoughts on “Self-expression

  1. Dude, that’s you in the break dancing video? Amazing…truly an inspiration. Did you find it hard to teach English in front of a class? That sounds frightening to me…but someday I hope to be confident enough to do something like that.

    I had severe problems with self-expression my entire life (except for when I was a child – like until age 11). It became so bad that I could barely even speak more than a few words to most people without feeling like I wanted to cry. Any form of self-expression in front of other people was extremely tough for me.

    I also just recently realized that I was blaming the fact that I was an INFJ for EVERYTHING. The problem was just that I was too afraid to break out of my comfort zone. But I’m getting better at this. Creating my blog was actually a huge step to breaking out of my comfort zone and curing my problems with self-expression.

    I don’t know if you mind me asking, and you don’t have to answer if you don’t want to..but how old are you?

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    1. Dude, that’s you in the break dancing video? Amazing…truly an inspiration.

      Yeah, I can’t even believe that was nearly ten years ago… (i was twenty i think, heheh).

      Did you find it hard to teach English in front of a class?

      At first, I was of course really nervous, but I can say almost all new teachers feel the same way. Over time, through many trial and error situations, and a lot of personal development, it became something I enjoyed. I’m still learning till this day.

      Any form of self-expression in front of other people was extremely tough for me.

      I feel you. I think it’s just a matter of building self-confidence in something you feel deeply about, or want to improve on first, and then using that as a foundation to build confidence in other things. For me, hip-hop culture was sort of my stepping stone to that path of self-confidence. It provided an outlet to so many forms of self-expression. The music gave me inspiration, the dance gave me a sense of empowerment, and for a while I got into graffiti art which was also another way to express myself. The beauty about all this was that I never needed to do it in front of anybody if I didn’t want to. But once I got to a certain point from gaining so much from this culture, after getting to a certain level of skill in the crafts I was learning and practicing, I realized I needed to give back in any way or form. And the most basic way of giving back is to teach. At this point, performing on stage, or teaching a workshop, these were things that involved being in front of people but I never thought about that, since I was confident in what I was doing, and more importantly, I was just doing what I love.

      I also just recently realized that I was blaming the fact that I was an INFJ for EVERYTHING. The problem was just that I was too afraid to break out of my comfort zone. Creating my blog was actually a huge step to breaking out of my comfort zone and curing my problems with self-expression.

      Breaking out of comfort zones is the hardest thing, but also one of the best things! It’s where all the growth happens. I never compromise who I am when I try to do new things or things I’m not comfortable with, instead I always just try to think of it as an opportunity to improve on the things I’m not good at.

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